You Won't Be Mine

By CarolROI

Take your head around the world
See what you get
From your mind

Jim,

I'm sorry about the way I'm leaving, but it's time, don't you think? Time for both of us to face the world apart, to see what we can become on our own.

Write your soul down word for word
See who's your friend
Who is kind

I know I need to figure out who I am, examine the life I've been leading. I suggest you do the same. I'll have my family to support me, and you have Simon, Megan, and all the guys at Major Crimes.

It's almost like a disease
I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you'll be strong
You'll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no - Oh no
No you won't be mine

What is they call people like us? Enablers? Co-dependants? We perpetuated and supported each others faults and shortcomings. But you're the strongest person I know, Jim. And I'm a survivor. You'll get through this, but we're better off alone.

Take your straight line for a curve
Make it stretch, the same old line

And maybe now, or with the passage of time, you'll come to see the world in not just black and white. Maybe you can view things through someone else's eyes, expand your mind.

Try to find if it was worth what you spent
Why you're guilty for the way
You're feeling now

If nothing else, the past three years have been a hell of a ride. I don't know about you, but I feel we accomplished some amazing things. There is still so far to go, but I know I'm not the one to travel that road with you. So if you feel my leaving is your fault, I don't know what to say to convince you otherwise. I don't know if I would be telling the truth if I tried.

It's almost like being free
And I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you'll be strong
You'll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no - Oh no
No you won't be mine

It's a new feeling, only having to worry about myself now. I feel like the door has been opened, and I'm poised at the brink, ready to fly. And it may take some time, but I know you'll feel that way, too.

Take yourself out to the curb
Sit and wait
A fool for life

I believe there's another life out there for me, and I'm taking the initiative, I'm out here looking for it. I hope you do the same, that you don't fall into a rut and let the world and all it has to offer pass you by.

It's almost like a disease
I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you'll be strong
You'll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no - Oh no
No you won't be mine

It was good while it lasted, but now I know I was only holding you back. You're free to fly, and so am I.

Blair



~finis~

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